So she dumped me and today told me she's got a new boyfriend. Found out when she bugged me on MSN to check my WoW mail. On it, she said she got a new boyfriend and her and him just "clicked". It was the guy I was very paranoid anyway about losing her to. Although I lacked surprise too much to care.
So I went out and managed to pick a webcam with 4 megapixels for £19. Came back and talked to her about her getting a new boyfriend. Apparently, I couldn't give her confidence but didn't want me to change for her because that's apparently shallow. Even though I must of said about twenty times over the course of a week "I can change" and "I'll fix it" and so much more. It ended her wanting to just be friends (although I suspect it's her way of having no guilt).
EDIT: I talked to her last night about the whole thing. Apparently, she actually never loved me. She cared about me, but not loved me. So it was really all out of pity and she broke it off for her own good (as though I'm meant to shake her hand and call it the mature thing to do). My entire thoughts can be summed up with the last three paragraphs I told her:
"One part of me makes me want to rip you apart in every single managable way possible. To torture you in ways you could not imagine and to make you feel pain longer and more than you could imagine for going out with me not out of love but out of sheer pity. How you ripped my heart from my chest and stomped all over it as though you felt you were doing good. In reality, you weren't.
You were grabbing my hopes, lifting them up to soaring heights and slamming them down as hard as possible. As though to snub out any springing hope in humanity. Another part of me says "good on you, you did what you felt was right and maybe you were a tad confused. Shame about him being hurt in the process of your confusion".
But know this, you are not forgiven. I do not hate you or despise you but I hope that you are forever left with at least a little guilt ripping your brain apart over what you have caused over the past month because there is nothing much worse than lifting someone's hopes and slamming them down hard and proving someone's paranoia true."
So this time, three videos. One funny one I found which takes the piss out of an anti-drug advert and two songs by Radiohead.
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Oh, and two versions of a Placebo song: Song To Say Goodbye.
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Sorry about the cut off at the end of the acoustic live one.
Gagsy
The lady is a tramp.
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Lost-Chances
Don't know. Her skin appeared clean.